35: Stepped in a hole

heartholeNo new ground broken here, at least in broad themes. It was important to me, though.

This is about losing. Losing someone, about the hole they leave behind, the hole that never completely fills. We learn to accept the hole, but it remains. And it should. That’s what reminds us how valuable our loves are.

I’ve come to accept endings, but I don’t understand them. Is it that we must experience endings so that we value every moment that we have during living? If so, that suggests there is a purpose in all this, something I find comforting, even as I profess no knowledge about something for which I was once so certain.

Maybe the point is to find meaning in the absence of a point. If so, I’m finding that.

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34: If you were born here, you might be boring.

spaghettiYou might be one of those people who thinks NPR’s “Fresh Air” program is boring. I’m not saying I agree with you, but I’m not saying I don’t.

On Monday Terry Gross interviewed the authors of a book about food during an important time in American history.

This is my take.

If you’d rather just read what I said, go ahead then. You’ll miss all that special nuance I like to add to my recipes, but hey, there is no accounting for taste.

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33: Swimming to a Different Conclusion — from Story Night

SN11SCThis is a rebroadcast (Repodcast if you’re going to be like that.) from Story Night. I’ll be doing this again at least once later this month.

In 2009 I jumped into a pool after my 2-year-old had fallen in. Between the time I jumped and the time I got to him, I had time to wonder if he would need CPR, if I knew CPR and time to have a quick memory of a family I knew growing up.

This story was part of our Oct. 1, 2015 Story Night. The night’s themes were those that could be found in Jonathan Evison’s book, The Revised Fundamentals of Caregiving. The book was the featured title in Kitsap Regional Library’s “One Book, One Community” program for 2015.

32: Disavowing the LDS gay marriage policy

gasfireAnswer me this, defenders of the LDS church’s recent move to set more stringent rules about gay people marrying and having children: If I disavow the church’s policy, am I disavowing the church?

Do you see where I’m going? Children of gay parents are being asked to do just that, and yet many claim disavowing the marriage is not disavowing the people in that marriage. For what it’s worth, the LDS church is really just establishing a hard line in its stance on homosexual coupling.

In this podcast I repeat what I posted earlier on Facebook and on the Field of Steve blog. The post addresses the policy, my own faith journey and where the church stands in my life compared to my family. That and more in the podcast.

31: First Story Night podcast

Enjoy the first episode of the Story Night podcast. Our first story comes from the winner from the first Story Night event in October. Rosi Farley tells of an enterprising teacher who was more “enterprising” than “teacher.”

30: Not letting it stay in Vegas

As if I, a guy turning 50 and taking his kids on a road trip, would have anything worth hiding on any vacation. So I tell you as much as I can remember. At my age the memory is slipping.

This is a road trip conversation with Caleb. I discuss Cincinnati, where the sidewalks empty around 10, if not earlier. Compare that to Vegas, where they empty at around 10 in the morning.

This is another kind of “hot talk” show. Don’t get used to that.

29: ¡¡¡Hot Talk Field of Steve!!!

This episode is not all that different from all the two-person talk shows you get on conventional radio, only there are not as many commercials. We’re just as good, though, if by “just as good” you mean “at least as tolerable.”

During this episode Caleb and I talk a lot about loyalty to teams and what can drive it away, all in light of what happened with Donald Sterling. Go easy on me. At the time it was still a fresh topic.

On the intro you’ll hear me mention that I think I’ve come to a final place for what the next iteration of podcasting will look like. I think I’ve found a way to do what I have always wanted to do, tell other peoples’ stories. Field of Steve is likely to remain, but there will be a new offering in the works. Stay tuned. On June 22 I should have more information available on the live show.

28: There is no cancer here

This episode completes the conspiracy theory storyline by telling the last tale from the month of conspiracy shows and by retelling the story out of Libby, Mont.

Again this is a rebroadcast of a couple of shows from 2011. The first story is about my friend and former boss, Jeff. I used that story to show that if I had written his story it wouldn’t have ended the way it did. The second story is weaving of stories of employees for the Grace Company in Libby and my dad’s own experience with the consequences of choosing to see something.

27: Some new muted ramblings on conspiracy

Yeah, yeah, yeah, some of you are saying you have heard it all before. But there is a, however so small, new audience to these shows that I wanted to introduce to one of the more important parts of the 2011 shows.

Plus I was on weekend duty and going to Cincinnati, so I had to come up with something on the quick for the show.

I considered not posting this as a podcast, but there was enough new content that I thought it merited it.

The exit to this show, by the way was recorded from a motel room in Long Beach, Wash. Listen and you’ll hear why.

26: SLC to PDX by way of NOLA

In 1994 I made a decision to move from Salt Lake City to Portland. I made a plan for how to get there, and my plan contributed to my ultimate success. But so many other circumstances from places I could not have imagined at the start played as much or more of a role in me getting to that day when I loaded up my well-worn BMW and hit I-15 to I-84 to the Pacific Northwest.

That I only stayed in Portland for a year is beside the point. That year was worth a lot to me and I’m grateful I eventually made it back up here.

The point of this story is to illustrate how we should go ahead and make plans for how we will get what we want, but to not ignore the hands coming from elsewhere.